A dream I had

I don’t know if it has anything to do with my friend losing her brother or if it is because I am getting old but I had one hell of a crazy dream. I dreamt about these two young girls that I worked with at my old call center job (these girls are still on my facebook) I dreamt that they were talking about going to NYC. I was talking to them and telling them how I wish I could go. They were asking me why I didn’t and I was telling them how I can’t afford to and how difficult it is with all of the things that I am going through. Then somewhere along the dream I was being asked with all the “degrees that you have” why are you working in a call center taking calls. I explained to them I am only motivated to do anything when I am high or on drugs. They told me how I was providing them with an honest answer. For the first time in a long time I was honest with myself in my dreams. I read how the CEO of yahoo pretty much has the same degree as me and he is running the show while I work in a call center doing modern day slavery. I want to get back in the game. I know my age, gravity and time are working against me. I have always been fascinated by others but it is time to be fascinated by myself for once. Maybe this thyroid medication from Thailand is working and giving me energy to want to even write this stuff. Maybe I found a calling in life – this started out as a blog on my thyroid but I know it is more than that. I am sure I could cure my thyroid if I ate well and did the right thing. I used to try all these short cuts to make it big, it is not about making it big it is about never giving up. I think the reason I dreamed about these young girls is because I was that age once and dreaming of going to NYC and LA. I am stuck in Vegas but going to figure it out and make it big some way and somehow.

Going without meds

I knew well in advance this day would be fast approaching so I decided to write about it and track my outcome. Currently I am without health insurance and do not have the hundreds of dollars to pay for lab work to get my thyroid checked and my medication. I know if there is a will there is a way. I am down to about 7 pills of 100mcg Levoxyl. When I was down to about 20 pills I started cutting them in half, then thirds then quarters and may even start cutting them in fifths. I am already experiencing the signs of Hypothyroidism. My skin feels terrible, my hands and feet are swollen, my face and under eyes are real puffy and I am feeling the hump in the back of my neck which is real sucky. The sad part id the medication itself if real cheap it's just the labwork and dr's visit that is just beyond overpriced. Dr. Reid's PA will not write me a full years supply and he makes me come in for all these visits and jump through hoops just to get aven a 9 month supply. With the Vegas heat coming and knowing that any leftover income will be sucked up by Nevada power I know I have no choice but to take matters in my own hands. I am not bitter nor I am upset I am keeping a positive attitude because that is one of the best contributors of good health. I have been looking into underground alternatives like buying overseas, silk road and even from a drug dealer but since I work and have a son I would rather be stuck with a hospital bill if worse case scenario hits than to be in jail. I have found a few cheap alternatives that I am trying. Not sure if they work but at least seeing how they pan out. They are as follows: Natural Sources Raw Thyroid Guggul and the miniscule of my thyroid medication that I have left. I know that I am shooting darts based upon internet searching and minimal research but will continue trying new things until I have a resolution. It is easy to pay. I have also ordered Thyroid-S through Amazon as it takes about a month to ship. Keeping my fingers crossed that this will be a good solution.