A dream I had

I don’t know if it has anything to do with my friend losing her brother or if it is because I am getting old but I had one hell of a crazy dream. I dreamt about these two young girls that I worked with at my old call center job (these girls are still on my facebook) I dreamt that they were talking about going to NYC. I was talking to them and telling them how I wish I could go. They were asking me why I didn’t and I was telling them how I can’t afford to and how difficult it is with all of the things that I am going through. Then somewhere along the dream I was being asked with all the “degrees that you have” why are you working in a call center taking calls. I explained to them I am only motivated to do anything when I am high or on drugs. They told me how I was providing them with an honest answer. For the first time in a long time I was honest with myself in my dreams. I read how the CEO of yahoo pretty much has the same degree as me and he is running the show while I work in a call center doing modern day slavery. I want to get back in the game. I know my age, gravity and time are working against me. I have always been fascinated by others but it is time to be fascinated by myself for once. Maybe this thyroid medication from Thailand is working and giving me energy to want to even write this stuff. Maybe I found a calling in life – this started out as a blog on my thyroid but I know it is more than that. I am sure I could cure my thyroid if I ate well and did the right thing. I used to try all these short cuts to make it big, it is not about making it big it is about never giving up. I think the reason I dreamed about these young girls is because I was that age once and dreaming of going to NYC and LA. I am stuck in Vegas but going to figure it out and make it big some way and somehow.